Today you are three. How has so much time passed already? I've decided to start a new tradition this year. On your birthday instead of just being consumed by sadness, I'm going to bake you a birthday cake, just like I would if you were here. That way I can celebrate you and remember the life you did have and what could have been.
This year she's too little, but in the future your sister will help me make your birthday treats so she knows about you and knows how much you are still part of our lives even though you are not with us.
I made cupcakes with candy corn colored frosting this year because it is fall and it has three colors for your third birthday.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Leyna keeps me on my toes but I often wonder what life would be like of you were here, if you guys would get along. I think you would have balanced each other perfectly. You are/were so quiet and calm and sweet to counter her wild and loud personality. She's super sweet too, and I can imagine you guys snuggling up together with a book or a favorite movie or show. I'm so sorry that my body failed you and you didn't get to be that amazing big brother.
I love you so much, then, today, always. Happy birthday my precious Nico.
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