Lately I have been making the conscious decision to choose joy. In my prayers, I ask for change in myself rather than change happening around me. I pray for a change in my responses and in the type of person I am. I am choosing to forgive God for not allowing me to have my child, even though I am still incredibly hurt and confused. I am choosing to trust in Him, that He has a great plan for me.
Then Satan tries to discourage me. Tries to make me worry about everyone that I love. Tries to defeat me by reminding me of how my body is completely failing and can't seem to do anything the way it should. Tries to bring me down and make me doubt.
But I have a choice. I have free will. And I choose the words "In the name of Jesus Christ, any evil must flee- it is not welcome here." And in those words I have the power. Satan can't have me. Evil can't harm me. Despite all that is wrong in my life, and despite all my disappointments...
I. Choose. Joy.
