Whine Break

I am just going to take a minute here to whine... I feel like my body is falling apart. I have pain shooting through every part of my body, from my head to my toes and every part in between. I wish I was exaggerating when I say every part, but I am not. Last night I couldn't stop crying because everything hurt so bad. I'm not sure if it is the result of the pain or just an accompanying issue, but my joints are so stiff that when I try to move it happens very slowly. I feel depressed and lethargic, I'm tired all the time no matter how much sleep I get. And on top of this, I haven't had a period in five months... that's almost half a year. When I realized this morning how long that is... it made it seem much worse. I'm wondering if these problems are all related, or if they are individual, or maybe one is causing all the others. All I know is, I would like a functioning body again, because I'm only 23 and my body seems to think it is 70 something.
Sorry to anyone reading this having to just "hear" me complain, but I just needed a moment to vent.

My current road

In my devotional, it keeps talking about how we aren't here to reach a certain point, we're here to experience a journey. We aren't "complete" when we finally accomplish the goals we have set for ourselves, and sometimes our goals aren't God's goals. It asks what we are doing at our current point on our journey, what we are making out of it and if we are trusting that God has placed us here at this specific location for a purpose. Recently, I was informed of a job opportunity in Michigan that seemed absolutely perfect for me. Although I initially wasn't very open to it because I don't want to move again, I kept open to the possibility when I heard what an amazing opportunity is is. My family keeps telling me that it must be a God thing. So I've been thinking about it and praying hard. Almost immediately, I heard "No." Thinking that maybe it was my own uncertainty, I continued to pray about this, asking Him to let me know very clearly whether this was the right course for me. After a few days, I heard as clearly as if it had been spoken, "Yes, this is a great opportunity; but for someone else, not you." I am confused. Part of me wonders why there would be something that seemed so perfect if it wasn't for me, but another part is thinking that I am obviously supposed to be doing something else right now. And that's actually something I've been thinking about lately. My job right now is not exactly the most rewarding and fulfilling thing for me personally and I know that I would rather be teaching and I know that I am supposed to teach, but I have realized that I am here right now, because Frank needs me. He tells me how much he appreciates me and his caseworker tells me how much more stable psychologically and emotionally he is now that I am with him. It's odd though, because I don't feel like I've even done that much, so how am I making that big of a difference? But especially today, I know that I am supposed to be with him right now. He has been going through some very rough times, especially after the death of his best friend/roommate. He's told me about others that have worked for him and how much he disliked them and I wonder what is so different about me and why he gets along with me so well and not with them. It does, however, reinforce to me that I am the one that is with him, at least right now, for a reason.