At what point did Christianity switch from Fire and Brimstone with a vengeful God, to "God is love, God is good"? If it's the same God, how can there be so vastly different teachings of him?
Lately I wonder which one is correct...both? Neither? I don't know.
Every few seconds, an innocent child dies of starvation or disease.
Every year over 6 million children are abused in the US alone.
Every day 4-7 children in the US die of abuse or neglect.
What kind of loving God would allow this?
This is the same God that made it LITERALLY RAIN FOOD in the old testament, just to prove a point, so that people would stop complaining and believe in him.
Whenever I pose the question of why he allows such terrible things, I get the response of "free will." God gave humans free will so that they would choose to love him rather than be forced to love him...is that really more important than sparing all these children? Children are killed, molested, starved...so that people can have free will? Someone else said that God allows third world countries to be as they are because it is the duty of others help them. A loving God would really allow people to die horrible deaths because other people chose not to, or were unable to help them? Are you kidding me??
At some point the whole "free will" argument becomes bull shit. I'm sorry if that offends you, but really... no loving creator could possibly have that thought process. If he is all knowing and all powerful, he could change things...he could make it better...he could save all those children. And he chooses NOT to.
I don't talk to God anymore. I used to talk to him all day long. But I can't share myself, I can't talk to or praise someone that I don't trust. And it's not like he's surprised by this...I flat out told him, many times that if Nico died, I wasn't going to talk to him anymore. Letting my babies die was his choice. Shutting him out is mine. That's how I'm going to use my "free will."
I envy the people who have lost a baby and maintained their faith. I think that's great and they are probably healing better than I am.
And sure...Satan is probably having a really excellent time beating me down and putting these thoughts in my head...but the thing is...it's still true. It's not like someone is lying to me so that I will think this bad things are happening when they're not.
If someone can logically explain this to me, I highly welcome it. I crave knowledge and understanding. So far though, nobody can give me a proper explanation.
I still believe that God exists and that Jesus died for us, but beyond that, I'm not sure what to think or believe.
Not offensive. To me anyway. It's a pretty logical question. One that has no answer that I have found. Remember when in the old testament, god got pissed and drowned everyone? Like, mass murdered the entire population of the planet? That's not what love is. I can't reconcile it. I can't reconcile a loving God with the idea of hell. If God is all powerful, he could shut that shit down. We could still have free will. Maybe we could just float off to space when we die or cease to exist, rather than heaven if we don't want to believe. Why eternal suffering? ETERNAL SUFFERING. I am supposed to have no shred of an idea of what live is compared to god. But in my angriest moment I couldn't allow that to happen to the person I like least in this world, let alone someone I love. Even if they were mean to me. Even if Cash grew up and told me he hated me. I could never. I love him so mich. So if gods love is so much bigger and... loveier... why would he allow eternal suffering? It isn't necessary for free will. It's like, punishment for using free will. A seriosuly messed up punoshment. I truly have nothing left to belive but that its made up to scare people into beliving. it can't be reconciled with a living god. It just cant. Well, just my two cents. I love you.
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