Music

I've always been a person whose emotions are extremely tied to music. If I listened to a particular band or song a lot during a certain time of my life, I will always remember how I felt and what was going on when I hear that music again. Unfortunately, this has caused me to be unable to listen to songs for long periods of time. Sometimes an album will make me incredibly sad to hear and it will take me awhile to connect the music to the event, but eventually I do. For the first time in five years today I was able to listen to Mae without being completely overwhelmed. It's so bizarre; I'm completely over the events that made me too depressed to listen to them, but for some reason every time I tried to listen to these songs, which are great, I was that broken, confused, 18 year old again. Finally tonight I realized that I'm actually free from that. I need to tie some music to something really happy so that five years from now I can hear a song and be randomly filled with joy instead of pain. At any rate, I just wanted to say that I'm happy that all of that crap that seemed so important a long time ago is absolutely nothing to me now. I wonder if I had tried sooner I would have had this revelation earlier. Hmm...